My wife has become upset at me, and I in turn have become upset at her.

The reasons are trivial. Which, of course, is never a good thing.

I am trying to not be angry. I was not in the wrong, yet I understand why she is upset with me.

In fact, no one is really in the wrong on this. Nor was there any misunderstanding.

A feeling of inadequacy, or an imbalance in perception, perhaps as to certain duties.

And the fact that my wife never feels she can ask me for help.

If this seems vague, I'm sorry. But I am attempting to stem anger, and I'd rather not deal with specifics at present.

Tags: pissed
Current Mood: pissed off

So Far, haven't heard this carol this year.

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Various bits of update.
1. Lost job in June.
2. Still haven't got a job as of September.
3. Found an idea for a story and I'm in about 12K words.
4. I can't get my ass to sit and write.

So, other than the job thing... everything is about normal.

Tags: writing. job. update.

Title: F.I.O.: Future Insignificant Overlord
Premise: The day to day life of a unemployed writer trying to get by on unemployment and find inspiration for his first book to sell. Trips to coffee shops, friends homes, interviews, and his home life.

Tags: writer's block

Largely, I'm crazy, because I have enough skills to be just this side of dangerous, but no paper to allow myself to get a better paying job in a better company.

*sigh*

Working out the issue is wearing me down.

OK, so It's been like, a week since my Ex contacted me. (for the interested, I told the wife day one)

We've chatted back and forth through email, and reminisced over old times, and where we are now. I'd forgotten how much I just liked her. Forget the whole things going bad, and the years of longing that came after, I just like her as a person. I had missed her as a friend. Now, I have the chance to have her as a friend again. That's possibly the best thing that has happened since I married my wife.

So, it appears that, as an example of the male half of the species, I'm hitting the "average" mark. I'll cope.

~Ciao

Tags: normal
Current Mood: relieved

Ever had the wind knocked out of you? It ever happen when something happens you just didn't expect? 17 years ago, a person stepped out of my life and I never thought I'd hear from her again. Today, she found me on LinkedIN.

As we parted on less than happy terms, I never thought that I'd see or hear from her again. Not Ever. Not that I didn't want to see her, mind you.

So, Now what? What do I tell my wife? Do I tell her anything? Do I need to? I'm hardly going to run off with a lover from the past, but those strong feelings that I had trouble getting past so long ago didn't just curl up and die... I truly cared for this person, and She Sought ME out...

No. Nothing is going to happen. I'm a different person, in a different world that doesn't have room for stupid crushes. I've been over her for a long time. I'm not going to let myself get caught up in the adrenaline I'm feeling right now. I just have to chill.

I can do that. You should see how patient I am with my crappy job. (OK, perhaps I'm fucked...)

Tags: oh crap
Current Mood: stressed

Wow. It's been three months since I posted here. I didn't even really miss it.

Well, we'll see what else happens.

I'm going to be in San Jose for World Fantasy next week, so maybe I'll post more? Maybe not.

Tags: world fantasy
Current Mood: chipper

Just touching base...

Life's been hectic, and I'm finding myself trying to write fiction rather than stuff about life.

I'm thinking I haven't seen a lot of my friends on here in a while, so I'm thinking they've left, or aren't paying any attention to me. Which is fair, since I haven't been interesting in a while.

Life Notes:

Am currently in the middle of 3 writing projects.
1: for an anthology that I've been selected to participate in (my first "officially" published story)
2: Writer's group project
3: Story that I plan to submit by the end of August.

More details will become available later.

Now that I've updated, it's your turn!

See Ya!

Tags: life, writing
Current Mood: calm